One year ago today I had my surgery. I have NO regrets! My weight loss has majorly slowed down though. I am at one of my "set" points. I was hoping to be at a 90 lb loss today.....but I was at 84 lbs this morning. I keep going up and down around 5 lbs or so. I was a little disappointed, but that is still a number to be really proud of. I have been losing inches for a while now instead of pounds. Eventually, it will show on the scale. It has to, right? !
That is something I am learning, by the way. I can't measure my success by the number on the scale. It's just a number. It's an important guide, but not the exact measurement of success. I feel so good, so healthy right now!
On the evening of January 8, 2015, I had an "ah ha" moment. I had TONS of energy. Now, the only time I feel tired is when I don't sleep well or after extremely stressful or emotional incidents. Otherwise, I am really on the go.
Another success for me is my activity level. I can move faster and for longer periods of time. I walk 2 miles in 20 minutes. That's pretty great for me :) I am also so happy to have exited out of plus size clothing. Hallelujah it feels amazing to not spend so much on an outfit! Skinny people don't realize just how expensive curvy people clothes are. Seriously.
I recently cut my hair and it was very cathartic. I have always made sure to have my hair cover the sides of my face. Truth is, I wanted to hide behind my hair. When I cut it, it was a way for me to be me. No more hiding. No more insecurity. This is my face. Its the one God created just for me. Here I am, world, all fearfully and wonderfully made!
Today I especially want to say thank you to my husband, the love of my life. He has always loved me for me. Even when I gained over 100 lbs, he still made me feel loved, cherished and wanted. David, you are amazing and I thank God for you.
Speaking of God, He is making everything beautiful in His time. From the inside, out, I am becoming brand new. Thank you Father,for your grace, mercy and kindness. This year has been an amazing journey. I am looking forward to another year of God's goodness, 40 more pounds off, then hopefully a baby.
Peace, Love and Joy,
Rachel
P.S. Here is my before and after collage. Woohoo!
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