13 Weeks

Well I am down 51 lbs now. This week my weight has been all over the scale. I am having lots of water retention....most likely from the 100 degree weather. I did have a gallbladder episode last Monday. Talk about pain! Luckily my CT scan showed no stones. I can't forget to take my Ursidol!

I tried a new breakfast this week. Added 2 tablespoons of cottage cheese to my egg, then scrambled. Yum!  Thank you Bariatric Foodie for that recipe. Life is good and I feel great. Let's see what next week brings.

Peace, Love and Joy,
Rachel

12 Weeks

Today marks 3 months since my surgery. Crazy! It seems like so long ago, yet not so long ago at the same time. Not too much is new this week. Yesterday I was super tired--so tired that two different people asked me if I was tired. (Yes, I was very, super-dooper exhausted, tired.) This morning I had a 2 lb weight loss, bringing my total up to 49 lbs. Only one pound shy of 50. Woohoo! I woke up today, even more tired than yesterday. I think that my body is finally burning the pounds, instead of the inches. Once again, this week the clothes that I wore last week were WAY TOO BIG on me. My tops, dresses, shoes and pants need replacing. One day this week I wore a skirt with a slip beneath it. That slip fell off while I was walking. That same evening, while I was jogging, my underwear almost fell off. Well, they would have except I was wearing fitted work out pants, which held them up. I officially have a valid reason to SHOP. Sorry, babe, I am going shopping this weekend. I'll try not to spend too much!

My other big accomplishment for this week is the "R" word. That's right, RUNNING. I did interval training--running/walking this week. I ran a block, then walked a block.....and so on. I still hate running, but it was nice to actually be able to run without feeling like I was going to die.

That's all for now.

Peace, Love and Joy,
Rachel

11 Weeks

Good morning! It's my Friday off and what a lovely morning it is! The heat hasn't picked up yet so there is a nice, cool breeze blowing through my open windows. I am sitting at my computer, enjoying a nice cup of coffee, with my two dogs cuddling at my feet. I am feeling grateful this morning.

Today marks 11 weeks since my surgery--just one week short of 3 months. As of this morning, I am down 46 lbs. It feels great! I am shrinking so much. My pants especially are looser on me from one day to the next. I have to confess that I am loving this. It feels so good to say goodbye to the fat that I've been weighed down with for the majority of my life. This saying goodbye is not just goodbye to fat, it's to all of the events, all of the emotions that lead me to indulge in sugary sweetness, that told my body to store and hold on to everything I ate. Goodbye pain, heartache, loss, disappointment, fear, anxiety, worry, strife. Goodbye to insecurity, feelings of worthlessness, sorrow, despair.

There have been some very dark times in my life. I held on to so many things inside of me. I never realized how those emotions that I was holding on to were affecting my physical body. That "holding on" part of me is broken (Thank you God!), and I am letting it all go. It's all shriveling up and disappearing, just like the layers of fat on my body.  I am thankful. I am grateful. I believe with all of my heart that this surgery saved my life, in more ways than just physical.

Today is a brand new day. I am working on the brand new me. Well, maybe it's not the brand new me. It's the me that's been hidden. Reflecting on all of this reminds me of what a great Father I have. No matter what,  He is faithful. He is with me. He loves the real me, in spite of the ugliness. And I don't mean the outside ugliness, but the ugly things that I've held on to inside of my heart.

Today is a brand new day. I am thankful for another day with my handsome, amazing husband. I am thankful for the time that I have with my sisters, my parents, my grandmother. I am thankful for my dogs, my babies, who love me unconditionally.

Today is a brand new day. I am thankful. Are you?

Peace, Love and Joy,
Rachel