Already 2 months?!

Good morning!

Today I am  writing about my 2 month milestone, which I hit yesterday. Woohoo! In some ways, time has passed so very quickly, and then it sometimes feels like my surgery was a long time ago.  I am still happy with my decision and don't regret it one bit.

Here is what's new:

First of all, the scale says I have lost 41 lbs. Yay! This week I could really tell that I am shrinking. The clothes that I wore last week were much looser on me. In fact, I think I am losing more inches than pounds right now.  I wore my favorite black skirt last week. This week, when I wore it, it almost fell off while I was walking down the hallway at work. Big change since last week! And unfortunately, time to retire my skirt. I loved that skirt too....

Secondly, my hair is starting to fall out a bit. Now, it's nothing scary. It's the same amount that always falls out when I am stressed. To be honest, I have a lot of stress in my life right now, so it could be stress related, or surgery related, or both. Work has been crazy, my uncle passed away last week and my husband's family is going through some really difficult stuff right now. No matter the reason for my hair loss, I am not worried about it. I don't have any bald patches, so that's good, right?!

I feel like my emotions are better under control; HOWEVER I still don't handle stress well. Stressful situations literally suck the energy out of me. I come home after a bad day at work and I can hardly stay awake to drive. My energy is a zero. With that said, on those days I cannot do my exercise routine. All I can do is sleep. If I push myself, then I end up feeling like I'm getting sick. So, it's just one of those things that I am adjusting to. I have said this several times, but it's like my fat was a barrier to stress. Now that it's going away, I feel like I'm losing my defense against stress. Weird. Very weird. I really need to be praying for direction regarding my job. I am waiting it out until August, which is when I am 100% healed/can eat anything (that I can tolerate).

Speaking of food, let me tell you about that. I am still in shock over how much this surgery has changed my taste buds. I still don't like fruit or anything that might taste sweet. All I want is hearty, savory foods. Bread still sounds gross. So does dessert. I am still in awe of that. I thought I would want to eat those things, but just not be able to. Now they  just sound gross. I mostly have been wanting to eat a lot of beef--ground beef, shredded beef, thinly sliced beef. That's probably because my body is craving it. Which is still weird because, as I've said before, I rarely ate beef before surgery.  Other than that, I am enjoying my food and I feel like I am really tasting it for the first time. I still don't have hunger cravings. In fact, yesterday I didn't eat breakfast until almost 10:30 am. That is crazy! I ALWAYS, and I mean ALWAYS ate breakfast first thing in the morning. Not now. I do better if I wait a bit because my stomach seems to be kind of sensitive in the morning.

Overall, life is good.  I am blessed. I feel good. I look good--meaning I don't look sick or like I just had major surgery. I am thankful.

Peace, Love and Joy,
Rachel