So, I got some really big news yesterday. I've been waiting, and waiting, and waiting......for a huge life change. After an entire life time of struggling, I've finally admitted that I can't do this on my own. I keep failing over and over and over again. I've prayed about it countless times, but it's still something I haven't been able to overcome. I'm not lazy. I don't do it when I'm bored or emotional. I just feel hungry a lot. Truly hungry. I've tried every pill, supplement, trick you can imagine. Nothing will take it way. So I am going to have a doctor take it away. Bye-bye hunger producing hormone grehlin. Hello tiny tummy pouch.
Some people feel that bariatric surgery is "the easy way out." I can't disagree more. This is going to be HARD. This is going to be PAINFUL. This is SCARY. But I'm not so proud that I can keep going on the way that I was. I have given 100% effort and failed time and time again. I am not going to live another 33 years like this. This is it, my bottom of the barrel cry for help. I really have peace about this.
I feel like I'm on the right track. I started this whole process in May 2013, and after months of waiting, I found out yesterday that I will be having my Sleeve Gastrectomy on Friday, February 14, 2014. That's just 2 weeks away!
Whether you agree or disagree with my decision, please, just love me and keep me in your prayers. I see this as a tool to help my body get to a normal weight. I have never been a consistent blogger, but I am hoping that this time around I will do better, as I hope to have LOTS of pictures to post. And I will need lots of encouraging words from you all.
Peace, Love and Joy,
Rachel
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